Sad, but true

Last night, I was doing what I typically do on a Monday night....being a total couch potato in front of the tv. Then it dawned on me that I hadn't spoken to my best friend, Karen, today. Our friendship is definitely one of a kind, and what I mean by this is, we are total opposites. She's extremely girlie and I'm more of the tomboy. She likes sports, whereas, I LOVE SPORTS (even though I never played them). The list goes on and on....

But as we were talking last night, doing the usual ranting and raving about the opposite sex, she said something so profound to me. Something that made sense and I completely wondered why the thought hadn't crossed my mind. She said (in her ever so cute high voice) "Women think too much and men don't think enough."

That was an "a-ha" moment for me. So as all women do, I began thinking. I'm in a situation right now that I've never been in before. I have a gentleman friend, whom I care deeply for. But sometimes I think he gets the raw end of the deal when it comes to me. I'm so analytical, that I everything he says, I pick it apart. When in reality, I just need to cut him a break. I have this habit of making life difficult for those around me and since knowing me, I think he's figured that one out.

But here's the thing: I'm so tired of having to appologize to him...should I have to keep appologizing for my faults? It's not often that he does. He just tells me like it is, and in his words, "I'm an asshole, kid." So shouldn't I have the right to say, "I'm just analytical, kid."

Ugh, I hate being this way, and to my gentleman friend (if you actually read this), I'm going to do something else I hate... I'm sorry for giving you a hard time. Bottom line is, I'm not in control and neither are you...there's something larger that controls our fate right now. Let's see where this ride takes us.