Editor's Note

HAHA....I finally fixed the "Edit Me" links and I added a picture....so there! (And yes, Brandon, that was directed towards you!)

I thought you might like the picture of me and Rachael sticking out our tongues!

Rack em'....I'm out!

To all my faithful readers, I bid you adieu! I'm off to Asheville, NC for a week for a work conference. But trust me, it's more like a vacation! Please leave me lots of comments telling me how much you miss me! I'll be back on Friday briefly. Then I head out Saturday morning to Greenville, SC where I will see Rascal Flatts from the 11th row (not my best seats, but they have a new stage setup, so they might be okay) for the fifth time in a year and a half! Can't hardly wait! Much love! Muah! xxoo

Valentines Day Rant Part 2

Part 2....the story continues....just wait, it gets better.

So after the fiasco on Valentines Day with the flowers, K calls me on Wednesday night. I was in a staff meeting so I was unable to answer my phone. When I got home I saw that he called my apartment too. But he never left a message, which by the way annoys me greatly. I hate it when someone calls and doesn't leave a message. To me that says, you're not important enough for me to leave a message, so therefore, you're not important enough for me to call you back.

Anyways, I was debating on whether or not to call him back Wednesday night. I sought the advice of a few friends who all said call him back. I had planned to but then someone else called and I got a bit distracted.....

Thursday morning at work, my cell phone rings and the caller id shows a number that I am not familiar with. I answered. This is how I remember the conversation

K: Hey Brooke, this is K.
Me: Hey K, what's up (thinking any minute he's going to apologize for the whole flower situation)?
K: Oh nothing much, just calling to see what's up with you
Me: Just working, you know how fun that is...

*Blah, blah, blah...small talk that's not important*

K: So I was wondering what you were doing Saturday night?
Me: Not sure yet, will probably have plans with Karen but we haven't decided what we're doing yet.
K: Ah...you're not gonna do anything, you know you don't have plans
Me: Well, as a matter of fact I do, just not sure yet
K: Well the reason I was asking was, I wondered if you wanted to maybe go out with my roommate J. You met him the other night at the restaurant. He's a good guy and I think y'all would have a good time.
Me: Um, well I dunno. I only met him for 5 seconds and I don't remember what he looks like or anything. We just said hello.
K: Think about it, this could work.

AHHHHHHH!!!! I am so glad that I didn't make it very far with this crush. He just sucks. Nice guy, but sucks.

Oh well...the search for a SBJD recipient continues.....

And for those of you who don't know what SBJD is....stay tuned!

Valentines Day Rant

I posted this on my myspace blog, for anyone reading this twice, I appologize.

Who else can you turn to but your blog in times like these? I just need to vent for a minute. My best friend has a good friend, well call him K, that I am interested in. She and I have been trying to arrange meetings with the 2 of us and K so it won't appear obvious and for us to get to know each other better. Well, since we are 2 single girls, she has told every one of our guy friends including K to send us flowers today. So Friday night at dinner, K was at the same restaurant as we were. So she makes the comment about flowers and I just throw it out there, that I love pink gerbera daisys.

Monday morning, I'm getting ready for work and my phone rings. It's K. He wants to know the name of a florist in town. I told him which one I use and where it is located. He then asks me "What kind of flowers did you say you like again?" So I told him once again, pink gerbera daisys. So I'm thinking that I'm going to get flowers from him and that he's just stupid and has no idea about how to be sneaky.

Well, today goes by and at 5:00 I still had no flowers. So my best friend came over and I said, "K is going to be on my shit list" to which she replies, "yeah he is, he sent me the flowers. He said he didn't know you all that well and flowers were expensive, but he did ask what you doing tonight. I told him you had a meeting to go to (which I did, I had to go to a sorority meeting since I am one of their advisers)."

Am I crazy or was that not a cruel thing to do to a single girl on Valentines day? To top it all off, I made myself look stupid. I told several people and coworkers over lunch that I might be getting flowers and it turns out they were never for me to begin with. I hate this day and I always have. Ever since elementary school where people HAD to give each classmate one, then onto junior high where you wait to see who's actually gonna give you one, to being dumped on Valentines day my senior year of high school. My mom told me that she and my dad sent flowers, but the florist called and said they would not be able to deliver them today. So I guess I'm getting flowers tomorrow. Not to sound ungrateful, but gee thanks.

My most serious boyfriend in college worked in forensics and had to work a plane crash on our one and only Valentines Day. The last guy I dated during this wretched day took me to Atlanta with 3 other people. The plan was to go to the Cheesecake Factory. I knew we wouldn't get in because everyone else would be there as well wanting to get in. So after him bitching and whining because I was right and I wouldn't make out with him in front of the other 3 people, we settled for a pizzeria in Buckhead. Then we went to the sex shop and he proceeded to buy me the best gift ever. It was battery powered. Perhaps the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me.

I just want to get in my bed and eat lots of fattening foods.

Just blogging in the rain....

Just blogging in the rain, what a glorious feeling......um....not so much. It has rained and rained and rained some more all day today. I am so sick of it. Not to mention the fact that it's like 30 something degrees. I had to walk to class in the rain. Needless to say I'm pissed. But what I'm most pissed about is the fact that I couldn't stay in bed all day today. It would have been the perfect day for falling into a coma. Oh well....24's comin on. Something to live for.

What I've been up to....

I'm sure I could spend hours writing this new and long overdue post and tell you what's really been going on. But I don't want to. I don't want to waste any more time or engery talking about the crap that I've been through in the past month or so. I will say that I have been in a bit of a funk lately though. I was forced to terminate an employee that I didn't want to let go of. It sucks when you're told that you have autonomy, but in reality you really don't. Why does anyone say this then? If you're not going to let someone make their own decisions, then don't tell them you are.

Sometimes I feel like I'm hiding behind a mask. If I really said everything I wanted to on here, someone would read it and I'd either a.) lose all my friends, b.) lose my job or c.) a and b. For example, I could go more into detail about the work situation, but then that's not real smart is it? Now granted there are somethings I will say on here and I don't care if this person is my friend or not. A couple of posts back, I mentioned something about a conversation that flew all over me. It goes something like this:

Guy: Hey, how've you been?
Me: Great, what're you up to?
Guy: Oh nothing, just seeing what you were up to.
Me: Well, I'm just hanging out around my apt.
Guy: So when you gonna get back in church?
Me: (thinking are you f'ing kidding me???) Um...well I think I've got it penciled in for about 2 weeks from now....I dunno, I can't give you a definite answer.
Guy: Well, why not?
Me: Because it doesn't work that way. I can't give you a concrete answer.
Guy: Well, I'm just worried about you cause you're not plugged in anywhere.
Me: While I appreciate your concerns, it's really ok.
Guy: Well now that you know how I feel about it, why don't you do something about it?
Me: (shocked once again) Because it's really none of your business.

And that's basically how it went down. Now I may have misquoted thata bit, if I did, my applogies. But for the most part, that's what was said. I was so mad after that. It's no one else's business what's going on with my walk with God. For so long I was a follower of a strict denomination that didn't believe in wearing pants to church or listening to anything but hymns. Then when I got to college, things changed and my eyes were opened. I always have this feeling that I must always do right. It's more about legalism than grace in my head. I'm really trying to change that mentality because any time anything goes wrong in my life, I automatically think I am being punished by God. Failed relationships, health problems, etc I always attribute that to my punishment for sin. I know now it doesn't work that way, but old habits die hard.

There's so much more for me to say and I promised Amber I would tell her 3 things about me that she didn't know of, preferably ones she can make fun of me for. Those are coming...have no fear....I'm just trying to think of some good ones.